Circumnavigation

We talked about poison that year
At parties, quietly joking about hemlock
We cross stitched initials of toxins on napkins
and wiped our sugary mouths

We circumnavigated this open door
We levitated casually every time the floor was lava
It hardened when winter started
We walked barefoot on these grounds

We drank it all
We spit it all out
Fuck your anonymous calls
Your clouds in the shape of clouds
Backs to the wall
We broke and that’s how we grew proud
We drank it all
We spit it all out

The blood came rushing back into my limbs
Sitting naked under the bathroom lights
Mirroring gestures our former selves acted out warmly
With upbeat confidence

I sing a song through the vents
Holding on to the pipes
The warm spider veins of this house
You wait for the offbeat in every sentence and i whisper
With eloquent ignorance
Winking flirtatiously
At the penultimate evil
The graciously peaceful
The hot-headed emptiness
You in your late twenties
I spit it all out

Bathe me in anything sweet and alive
Can i rent this one corner of your beehive
I need space for my spouse and twenty kitchen knives
And a desk space with natural light
Like a fire out back where my sisters are burning
These men’s miserable lives
Like a fire out back where my sisters are burning
These men’s miserable lives

I renegotiated terms of endearment and service
Slow motion shots of each small nervousness
Precursors to falling head first into this mess
And digging ourselves out
I was a terrible friend up until the end
I am a bearable blend of loose end and godsend
Let me pretend I don’t break
I don’t bend
I don’t fake
I intend
To laugh and transcend

I had an ear piece hanging from my lobe like a footnote
Wrapped in yet another ill-fitting coat
Stuck a finger out and stuck it onto a spinning globe
Where it lands i can not afford to go

We drank it all
We spit it all out
Fuck your anonymous calls
Your clouds in the shape of clouds
Backs to the wall
We broke and that’s how we grew proud
We drank it all
We spit it all out